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Daydreamy Side of the Moon

Anxiety stretched taut until it sings

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Uwehhhh...

Nervous, nervous. Trying to psyche myself up to go to Miku Expo in a few hours.

It's not like it's the first time - I went to Miku Expo 2016 in Mexico City, and I even cosplayed back then! But it's the first time I've gone to a concert alone and first experiences bring my anxiety all the way back to full speed. It's not even a clearly articulated worry, or a specific cause for concern, just a fuzzy, tangled up ball of scary, adrenaline, and panic with neither cause nor justification.

I know that, I know that well, and yet...

Uwehhhh...

I-I'll be fine. It'll be okay. It'll be fun!
I'll be fine. I-It'll be okay. It'll be fun!
I'll be fine. It'll be okay. I-It'll be fun!

Surely if I keep repeating that, it'll be true.

Past the veil of meaningless fear and insubstantial worry lies fun and music!
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  1. mAc Chaos's Avatar
    I hope it went well.
  2. Sunny's Avatar
    I-It did! Thank you for asking.

    I spent a lot of this weekend recovering, eheh, but I'll be marshaling my silly thoughts tomorrow.
  3. mAc Chaos's Avatar
    Just in time for Anime Expo. Are you going there too?
  4. Sunny's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by mAc Chaos
    Just in time for Anime Expo. Are you going there too?
    Mmm, not this year, sadly.

    Moving it to Thursday rather than Saturday was a death knell for me since I can't take two days off work to go.

    That being said, I work literally two blocks from where the Expo is, s-so I can probably say hi to anyone who does.

    ...P-Probably, nerves permitting.