Beam's Blog of Writing and Other Things.

She stares into your soul, and smiles at the secrets she sees.

I've always prided myself on being a rather calm, laidback individual, all things considered. I'm generally slow to anger and quick to forgive, and it's always been something I'm proud of.

And I'll warn you all that I probably will be a bit easier to push over the edge than I usually am, because as of Monday the trial of Taylor Clementi's roommate started, and the suicide of Clementi has always been an oddly touchy, close subject for me even though I didn't know the boy personally. ...

WARNING: The below contains discussion on suicide, religion, and some minor pondering on sexuality. If any of these things are a trigger for you, please do not read on. If you do not take my advice, you have been warned.

So I'm in a bit of an odd mood. I just finished writing my midterm rough draft, which is focused on the stigma of seeking counseling for emotional and mental issues. I picked up the school paper today and learned Clementi's roommate is now on trial. All in all, suicide ...

I've been active on the internet since I was about thirteen or fourteen; that was the time I joined my first fandom. It was my first experience with an online forum to discuss a media that interested me, it was my first time interacting with other people from all over the world. It was a series of firsts for me, in more ways than one. ... I was a very innocent pre-teen, don't judge me.

My very first fandom was American Dragon: Jake Long. And today, for the first time in several years, ...

Some of you may remember this lovely little line from the Afterword of Shinderella, as said by Moczo himself:

... Your mind is just 'YuriYuriYuriYuriYuriYuri', isn't it?

And sad to say, it is true. Mostly because seriously, this man is my best friend, he knows my mind far too well.

But yes, you all may have noticed by now the shocking number of lesbians in most of my work. And as much as I would like to say that it's because I secretly hate het, it's.... really ...