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Not cheerful first blog entry (cry for help)

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Strange_One
, December 31st, 2012 at 01:20 PM (2165 Views)
Greetings to thee! Another basket case reveals itself on BL!

Yay. Clap clap clap.

Though it may be dismissed as wallowing or drama I'll say it for brevity. Most things in my existence are shit or turning shit. Have been or have turned so throughout my life. Most recently my physical health is declining to match my mental decline. This is really a lot faster to say than to describe and explain everything. It took most of a year with my Counselor.

All my attempts to find any kind of help over the last few years have amounted to very little. A counselor who appears to be doing nothing but recording my falling apart and being put on rather toxic antidepressants by a psychiatrist who apparently isn't interested in anything other than knowing what drugs I want.

Despair.
No hope whatsover.
Apparently unwilling to drugs or suicide.

What do?
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  1. Gabriulio's Avatar
    Apparently unwilling to drugs or suicide.
    So not all hope is lost then.
  2. Dark Pulse's Avatar
    What you do is find a friend who you trust and talk with them.

    And a better counselor.
  3. In-N-Out Double-Double & Animal Fries's Avatar
    Find a hobby, or get a pet
  4. Strange_One's Avatar
    @GP
    Counselor-tan and I haven't really worked that one out. I mean, I have an animosity towards drug abuse and I seem resistant to the idea of killing myself despite not being religious or anything. I think I'm just a coward.

    @DP
    hrmm.... If I had someone I were willing to drop all my shit on - would I put this here for all ye semi-anons? ^_^

    Counselor-tan may be sad frog, but I suppose looking for another viewpoint might help.

    @Kyo
    Well, it's hard to discern interests out of the deep depression/meds. There are things I would like to do or get on with, but for one reason or another - could be meds/situation or just me being me, I am unable to summon the energy, concentration or interest. Manic depression would be a big upgrade if I could get some stuff outta the manic bits.

    And I don't think I have the patience or ability to treat a living dependant well.
  5. Kotonoha's Avatar


    I feel your pain friend.
  6. Bittersweet's Avatar
    My mother was seeing a shrink for years and he was really nice, but.. he didn't really seem to help her get better. She switched and went to a new one last year. She says she is happy she did. Much progress made.

    You don't have to stick with someone if they aren't helping. Quite the contrary, in fact.
  7. Strange_One's Avatar
    @Koto
    Thanks. Would be nice to have some time, but back to work 2nd. And haven't really recovered from my latest virus.

    @Nibblesweet
    Thanks for that.

    I think with my social ineptness not sure about how to approach this with the counselor. Thinking about seeing another whilst still seeing this one.
  8. Bittersweet's Avatar
    Nibblesweet? >.<
    Makes me sound like some kind of corn... :3

    But seeing two at once? That would be like you were cheating on your existing councelor! :(
    Updated December 31st, 2012 at 05:34 PM by Bittersweet
  9. Strange_One's Avatar
    I know, but I'd feel awkward about leaving the first one! It's been over a year and she knows all sorts of things :/