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Stare at your avatar.

Drink.

Find a hobby to do? That can be fun c:

Rape the Maids.

Hm. Pictures tend to have little benefit to me, and last few times I tried alcohol makes me feel worse. I guess depressing the self control side releases the defenses or something.

Too busy and drained being miserable Hikki to do any hobbies.

Have no maids and I prefer to be nice and gentle.

Rape the air.

It always consents

Masturbate.

that too

Originally Posted by Hen_Ichi

Have no maids and I prefer to be nice and gentle.

Rape the maids more slowly then.

Did you miss the have no maids bit? =|

Though this makes we wonder if a Synchroniser's energy would be able to relieve my symptoms.

Stop bitchin' on the net and actually go seek professional help.

Seen about half a dozen counselors over the years. Only the most recent one is sticking with me, though over the last year and a half still not feeling any better. Two psychiatrists say that interfering or adding other treatments alongside another is not recommended.
Consultants and doctors can't seem to do anything other than offer drugs. I doubt any substance can help me. Thus the medical infrastructure here is exhausted/cannot help.

Searched for and contacted various charities in the field. No help there.

I have been at this for a few years now. Just what little there is left of me is failing.

Take your drugs and also make behavioral changes.

Pills alone won't pull you out of the bog if all you do is cruising the net and complain "I R SO SAD".

Talk to your family, talk to your friends. Faceless Internet mob is no substitute for therapists.

EDIT:

Also, while you are on the net, go to depression self-help sites and forums, for more tips and ways to cope.

What you are doing is like the least helpful/productive thing.

Originally Posted by food

Take your drugs and also make behavioral changes.

Pills alone won't pull you out of the bog if all you do is cruising the net and complain "I R SO SAD".

Talk to your family, talk to your friends. Faceless Internet mob is no substitute for therapists.

EDIT:

Also, while you are on the net, go to depression self-help sites and forums, for more tips and ways to cope.

What you are doing is like the least helpful/productive thing.

(Srs Modo)

Listen to this man. He knows what he is saying.

First step in getting better is wanting to get better. Second step in getting better is forcing yourself to stick to getting better. Third step in getting better is to remember that "two steps forward, one step back" is still progress, and that as long as you're progressing forward, slower progress is better than no progress.

Half the battle literally is your own motivation.

I am eating the drugs. I am trying to get things done. And actually my sentiment in the post was regarding pain.

Resorting to here is a recent development. Just wanted to see if anyone had any ideas.

Talking to family would do nothing but make things worse. They are unhelpful or make me more miserable. I've already dragged down my friends enough with everything over the last decade, though this barrier of self restraint would seem to be failing. The counselor person would be a therapist...

I would have thought trying to look anywhere to help would be an indication of wanting to get better. I've yet to see any improvement with anything I have done. Things seem to happily get worse over time. Two steps forward one step back would be very nice.

Whatever form my will to live takes it seems it's not dead yet. It's just taking a constant beating.

Don't Give Up. Ever. If you give up, all that effort you gave would be for nothing. And everyone would be sad even if they say they wouldn't.

Anyone can get better even if Life keeps saying FUCK YOU every. single. day.

If you look at anything long and hard enough, everything can be depressing. That's why I preferred to be a chuckling optimist. At least then, laughing was better.

If I wasn't who I was, hell, I don't even think I would have gotten past all the shit that came down on me last year.

If you give it your best, no one can say anything. So keep on trying. Do what Darples said, cause me and him know shit can be down right fucked.

Motivation is key.

Read some Rumi.