Five_X
About My Jimmies
by , September 20th, 2012 at 03:54 AM (4670 Views)
Yaaargh, I wish I could manage to get everything together lately. I've been trying to prioritize writing, but with all the jumbled stuff I've got to do, that's pretty difficult.
Thinking it over, I've got to go search for jobs, write out applications for medical insurance while also figuring them out, make time to write, cure my addition to Fallout: New Vegas, maintain a regular human life, do more job searching, ad infinitum. It's too tangled and just annoys me to no end. No matter what, I end up with less and less time to write, and the time that I do have I just spend playing Fallout because I'm lazy and I'm an addict.
Unfortunately, with job searching, it ends up being less of a productive use of time and more an exercise in me wandering around town for an hour or two to appease my parents. The idea of diminishing returns is heavily in effect here, and I can name maybe four or five places I haven't applied to, and they're most likely not hiring.
But still, my parents get annoyed when I stay at home and don't do much, even when there's nothing really for me to do on the job front.
I'm really just running out of enthusiasm for a lot of things, and I take up video games, especially Fallout, to fill that void in me. Less people are reading The Manhattan Project II than before, and writing it almost becomes a chore, but I continue it out of enjoyment and my desire to tell the story. I don't know how long that enthusiasm is going to last, though. I've variously lost some of my best readers over the past few months, and I can't help those thoughts from burrowing into my mind.
Sometimes I don't even know what I should be doing anymore.
Jimmies status:
[X] - Rustled
[ ] - Unrustled
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